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Friend Defense

Screenshot of Friend Defense by Lydia Neon

Friend Defense by Lydia Neon

Friend Defense is a tower defense game centered around the circle of friends and supportive acquaintances I’ve made over the last two years, particularly the last few months. It’s got a definite slant toward those I interact with on twitter. I tried not to censor by “is this person actually a friend, or just someone I know, or a friendly acquaintance, or something else?” because even for those who aren’t friends in the traditional sense, I tried to acknowledge that even non-specific good will can have an impact.

<3 each and every one of you. You’ve done your part to make the last couple years amazing.

Play Friend Defense Here

Friends and supporters in game (in alphabetical order):

  • April
  • Carmen
  • Carolyn
  • (Wm) Caylee
  • Emily
  • Erika
  • Erin
  • Hannah
  • Jules
  • Julia
  • Kim
  • Lauren
  • Leon
  • Lillian
  • Merritt
  • Mym
  • Natalie
  • Nire
  • Nyux
  • Porpentine
  • Rachel
  • Roxanne
  • Sky
  • Splicey
  • Whit

Given there’s such a wide net being cast for who is being included, please don’t take not being listed as commentary on how close of a friend you are! There’s a sharp bias in favor of a very narrow group: people I’ve interacted with on Twitter in the last 24 hours. I also selectively didn’t include some folks who I suspected wouldn’t have wanted to be included. I tended not to use FB pictures, preferring avatars used on Twitter, simply for the matter of only wanting to share peoples’ faces if they have put them out there. So if we only talk on FB, that’s probably why as well. There’s already so many I know I left off. Jenna, Ozy, Thorin, Jen, Nat, Zoe, Avory, Susan, the AV collective, Claire, Tess, Monica, this list would never end!  <3 <3 <3

Fangirl

Looking Back on Underlight – Part 1

Part one of two. This first part is a twitter conversation that took place earlier this month. In part two, I will elaborate on some of the old feelings this conversation brought up, and what the game meant to me.


Resetting Reset – Call for submissions for Reset: Expanded Edition

Deadline: Feb 2nd, 2013

(I have to put a deadline on this because classes will be starting and I want to be able to get this all done)

Turtles All The Way Down

“Turtles all the way down…”

First off, I’m glad so many people enjoyed Reset!

One of the things I heard most was that it was too linear. Mea culpa, I was working within the time constraints of the Big Chaos Twine Jam so I made the choice to limit how far the story could branch. After all, I had a very particular story I wanted to tell, and finding clever ways to branch and then still reach that ending isn’t a trivial task! After all, one of the best things about Twine is its accessibility for people with limited spoons (or another metaphor of choice).

That’s where you come in.

There were breadcrumbs of subplots scattered throughout the game. I want you to pick one and develop it further, and submit your work for inclusion in Reset: Expanded Edition.

Submission Guidelines

1) Download the source.

2) Choose one of these three nodes as branch points: “your apartment”, “wrong”, or “turtles 2”.

  • turtles 2: If you choose this node, you are going to write an alternate loop. Essentially, this means the player will play through an entirely new loop designed by you that will in turn lead to “recurring”, closing the loop and continuing to the ending. The first node in your submission will be where a link in “turtles 2” (that I will add, don’t worry about this) lands.
  • your apartment: If you choose this node, rather than following the Alison breadcrumb, choose one of the other breadcrumbs and take the plot that way. Your first node in your submission should be where you land after clicking a link from your apartment to your first node.
  • wrong: Branching from here means allowing the player to refuse Alison entirely. Your first node will be reached by a link in “wrong” that provides an alternative to the forced acceptance.

3) You must end on “Turtles all the way down” in some form, whether kink or not, in order to kick out of the loop you’ve created.

4) Do not modify any of the existing nodes. Instead, create your nodes below the existing nodemap.

5) You do not need to worry about scripting anything fancy, but you may if you wish. If you have something minor that you can’t figure out, feel free to simply include an explanation of what you think the code should do.

6) Style Guidelines: Italics are reserved for first person memories and communications with and via headware. Communication follows the format //[ message ]//. Use single brackets, double brackets will create links and we don’t want that.

7) I encourage you to expand beyond the realm of kink.

 

I reserve the right to make edits as needed to ensure the story flows and is able to be completed.

 

Completed submissions can be sent to AUTUMN (at) LIFEINNEON.COM

Good luck!

 

<3 Much love. Take care of each other.

_-*

Why I Can’t Explain How Dysphoria Feels

It’s like tasting water. Water isn’t supposed to have a flavor. When there’s no flavor, there’s nothing to notice. But when you taste something, you know something’s wrong and it brings it to your attention.

So you say, “The water in my cup tastes funny.” And everyone else replies, “Mine doesn’t.” “I don’t taste anything.” So you try to explain, and they ask what it tastes like. But you’ve never tasted anything like it before, and they haven’t tasted anything like it ever. Finally, they conclude, “It must all be in your head.”

But it’s not your imagination, because as soon as you dump out that glass and refill it, voila: no more strange flavor.

But from that point on, people look at you like you’re selfish because your first glass “wasn’t good enough” or they assume you’re crazy and wasting water on something you can’t prove to their satisfaction. When all you wanted was the same bland, flavorless water as everyone else.

 

Originally posted at my old blog 5/8/2011, reposted here 9/10/2013

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